pseudo-med stuff

i had bloodwork done yesterday, and for some reason i was expecting beautiful, normal numbers when i got the report today. like maybe in the low 30s for my progesterone level, and somewhere in the teen-thousands for hcg. god knows where i got these expectations or what i was doing wasting my time with them.

my progesterone is a whopping 51.6. am i the only one to be scared by that number? i know the docs like the progesterone level to be over 15 — with ruby i think it was 31 or so — but this? i find this bizarre. and bizarre, well, these days bizarre alarms me.

my beta hcg, on the other hand, is a sorry 2257.

now, no matter the online charts i frantically refer to, this number falls in the normal range. sometimes it’s at the low end; other times, it’s square in the middle. and i know — I KNOW — that the number is not nearly as important as its rate of increase. I KNOW THIS AND I DON’T CARE. for some reason, the fact that it’s not higher has me petrified. even though dr l says it’s perfectly fine and he’s very happy with it and i should just come back next week as we initially planned.

anybody want to wager how many hpts i waste between now and then?


no, no, you drug-using euro-cyclists: i’m not talking to you. 

i’m using evening primrose oil for the first time this month and the shit really works. everything, everywhere, is all kinds of gooey. but much to my surprise, everything is gooey earlier than i expected it to be. so i started using opks to see if my ostensible date to ovulate — which, based on all historical evidence should be in three more days (and is always a few days past day 14) — is in fact, or will be in fact, my actual o date. so far the tests have been useless, but i’m pretty sure using them in a trough — too late to catch an o earlier than expected, but too early to catch an o at the right time. so my empty data set is not too surprising.

ANY WAY. i’ll keep peeing on sticks until i see the lh surge or until my expected date has passed. it’s likely i’ll know nothing, either way.

but to help me obsess process consider what might be happening, if you’ve used evening primrose oil and what i’m saying makes any sense to you, will you tell me? pretty please?