after my third miscarriage dr h did a basic blood panel and discovered that i have an elevated titer of anticardiolipin antibodies. he put me on baby aspirin for my next pregnancy.

but i pprom-d with earl and lost her, so dr h sent me to a rhematologist (dr r) to see if he’d missed something. dr r did a workup and said no. this was both relieving and baffling. clearly there is something wrong with some part of my system, and someone, dammitalltohell, should be able to find it.

later, after i pprom-d with ruby, dr l thought i should consult with a perinatologist who suggested a) we should get me checked out for ehlers-danlos and/or marfan syndrome(s) and b) we should get the dr r’s report to see what tests he did to see whether we need to look harder and further.

three weeks, four phone calls and two faxes later the dr r’s report (back from 2005) is finally in my hands. and everything is negative. the report even includes the comment that i have no apparent connective tissue diseases, which i am assuming is shorthand for eds and marfan’s.

so that’s good, right? right?

except that i don’t know whether dr r looked for “everything” — what the hell is “everything” anyway? — so maybe it’s neither good nor right. and it’s all getting a little scary, since, oh, the zero trimester could be ending any day now.